Thursday, April 07, 2011
A lot has happened since I last posted anything on this blog. The biggest impact: my mother was diagnosed with cancer around the time of my previous post. I moved home to take care of her a few weeks before she passed away this past December. I wish I could update this blog with all of the things I've been working on, but the truth is that the creative wellspring has been pretty dry. I've wondered if perhaps it is because I don't have that many life experiences to draw upon-- I haven't traveled much or extended myself often to do things that forced me to step out of my everyday existence. I've even wondered if the truth is that I don't really have anything to write. Perhaps I'm more of an editor, a thorough reviewer, since I seem to still be competent at that end of things. I'm not ready to give up just yet, but I find myself getting disheartened by all of the successful writing around me, and that's just not a good sign.
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My sympathies on the death of your mother. Don't give up. You are grieving. Grief can make one feel blank inside. Your ideas and inspirations are still within you. They will emerge again eventually. Encourage them by writing even when you feel you're writing drivel. You have the creative fire inside you; it's simply banked right now. One day the spark will ignite and burn with a fierce flame.
Sorry of course about your mother. My mom also passed in 2010. As for writing, I find that a change of scenery helps me. NOt even a long trip but a walk in the park or a day at the zoo, or something along those lines.
I'm sorry for the loss of your mother. She meant a lot to you. Grief, for some, can kill inspiration, while others it gives them a way to express their feelings. Give yourself some more time.
I'm trying to write about my other emotional conflicts, Calliope, but I'm not ready to write about the cancer yet. It's taken me this long to be able to face framing an answer to your lovely comment. Thank you for the encouragement, which I really appreciated, though I remained silent for so long.
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